Some things in life are so simple, yet so beautiful and cherishable. One such thing is watching your younger brother play/love/bond with your little one. Its priceless. I dont know how to put it exactly, but I have noticed that being with Saim brings out the boyish side of Hamza. Its a treat to watch his open laughters, and such abrupt, naughty and excited responses and gestures. Adorable is the word.
Yesterday morning, I flew from Karachi to Lahore with Hamza. Although I am sad to leave the gorgeously pleasant weather in Karachi for the chilly one in Lahore, I am thrilled to be at home with family.
I wont lie, I was pretty apprehansive about flying alone with an infant, but it proved to be one the best flights of my life. My baby is an angel. Period. He slept, he played, he laughed, he fed, and I was proud (mainly because I could hear numerous shrieking babies on the flight). But it all came at a price of a pretty bad muscle pain in my arms and back from handling a (not-so-light) baby and a (pretty heavy) carry bag, ALONE.
Hamza is enjoying a celebrity status here, what with his Nana Nano and Mamu, all being so excited and absolutely thrilled to have him with them for a few days. AAAHHHHH…..!!!! Finally some relaxing-time for Mommy. Win-win!
My dear Hamzu — You are 5 months old today. Where did the time go? They say it passes really quickly when you are having a good one, they are right. You are the most awesome little person I have ever met. You take my breath my away with your open mouthed smiles and giggles. I feel so much love for you that I didnt know was possible. And I am astounded by the fact that my love for you keeps on increasing each day.. How is it possible to love you more than (by any ounce) i do now? But i know tomorrow my heart will be more filled.
I love you. But the fact that baffles me is how much YOU love ME!!!! I see so much love for me in your kind, sweet eyes that it makes my heart break! When your eyes sparkle upon seeing me, i feel on top of the world. Its the best feeling. Period.
They arent kidding when they say that you blink and they are fully grown… I have decided to stop blinking from now on.
Going down the memory lane with your pictures of past 5 months…
Oh Boy! This parenting gig is a tough one. It involves juggling between feeding, changing diapers, getting the lil one to sleep ON REPEAT!!! I mean you think that you can have a few moments of peace after doing one bit but its a false hope… The cycle never stops. Add to it baby tanturms (i have slept n changed and fed but still you have got to hold me OR ELSE…), and you have got yourself a complete madhouse formula!
For a stay-at-home mom/dad, it can leave you a bit flustered, somewhat bordering on depressed. i mean there is only so many times that you can change a poopy diaper a Day! You crave adult interaction, you crave quality alone time, you crave dressing up and going out on your own. And between all these cravings, you become absorbed in the so-called loss of personal identity (who am I? Just a Mom? Whats my life going to be frm now onwards? N about a million more such question marks!).
Times like these that you miss your family to bits, someone to share the thoughts with, someone to share the load with, n most of all someone to share the gazillion cute things that your baby does all the time! Aahh!!! Time to visit family i guess ….
You know its going to be a beautiful morning when you little one wakes before you do and rolls over n (kind of) hugs you and patts your face and gives you droolly, slobbery, messy kisses (which also happen to be your absolute most favourite thing in the world!). Plus this awesome cloudy rainy day (after a loooOOOng sunny stretch) doesnt hurt this poor rain-loving girl 😉
C’mon thunderstorm!!!!! (Please please PLEASE God.. Let there be thunderstorm…)